Happy Wesak!

Yesterday, while I was walking, standing, staring at people idly at Broadway Market, Beth told me that this day was the anniversary of Enlightenment of Buddha and the London Buddhist Center at Bethnal Green was having free events. (I know I should not be wandering around idly when I should be studying but it was Saturday!) Anyways, so, I decided to go to Buddhist Center and see what was going on. I thought it was a good reason to finally make myself go and check out the center (which I have intending to do since I have heard about it but had been kind of scared for some reason). Therefore, I went there and a man hands me a leaflet which had the activities of the day written on it. He told me to go in and have a cup of tea. After several minutes of staring at the leaflet and realizing if I only had come an hour ago I could have had the chance of attending a free yoga class and “himm there is a meditation session coming up”… Then, a young man came and asked me if I would be attending the mediation session and I said “yes”(!). So, I went into this room where there were already several people sitting… The teacher started talking about what we are trying to achieve with meditation, “greater awareness”. He then talked about how to sit and explained the first exercise, “watching the breath…” After the first exercise, he explained us the second exercise, which has 4 parts and the last part is what Carry actually told me to do on our Friday meditation sessions after yoga, “focusing on the sensation where you first begin feeling the breath, around your nostrils and over your lips...” And we started the second exercise and in the second part, I began feeling like floating, as if I was in a sphere and the sphere is tilted down to the left… I started getting scared and then with the Teacher telling us to move into the third part, I came a bit back to normal but then in the fourth part I, one more time, felt like I was out of my body. The only parts of my body I could feel were my hands and my head or maybe my breath… After we opened our eyes, I told the teacher that I got dizzy and felt like floating. He said that if we feel this way, we should open our eyes and try to feel our body…
Well, after I got out of the Buddhist center, I was still not very much in my body. I came home, had something to eat hoping that would give me energy. I tried to read the paper but felt quite nauseous and after a while gave up trying to feel normal, I decided to take a nap… There went my whole day in a dreamy, kind of nauseous, dizzy way. Nevertheless, somehow I am still determined to continue meditation, but maybe I am through with my exams… Happy Wesak everybody!