Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Dreams, thoughts of going home, friends...

Less than a month left for home… I guess… I am not sure. As the time for going home gets closer, all these things that I have not think about, but things that make me anxious, began to pop up in my mind again… These are mostly things concerning teaching, etc… I want to teach if there is demand for my teaching, for ashtanga Vinyasa yoga; otherwise, I do not claim anything. I want to teach in exchange for something and I want to teach to people who want to learn ashtanga yoga, so to people who can commit at least 3 mornings a week. I am manifesting my desire and I guess the rest is up to the universe.

What else? Ihimmm It is still nice here. Irena and Marco got married last Friday in a Hindi temple. It was lovely! Also Arne, Mau and Barbara came all the way for the wedding! I kept saying “if I ever get married, I want it to be like this with a nice ceremony, with great friends and Rolf and Marci, just like a family”. My camera broke but I got photos from all these people who were taking photos. Towards the end of the ceremony, I realized how much my life changed, how magical this is all. 3-4 years back, I could not imagine being in India, being with all these people who entered my life recently and became like family, sharing these precious moments… Some getting married, others getting engaged, another getting pregnant (!) … Life works in wondrous ways. Ahh, so now I realize how insignificant all those things that occupies my mind and causes me to loose sleep ☺

Tomorrow we are back to 6 AM practice from 5AM! I am still working on jumping and trying to keep a light attitude. It will happen some time. Ohh and there will be pranayama class on Saturday! At last I will learn, I have been waiting for a Pranayama class since last year, they were happing always when I was away, I guess it is time for me to learn now!

I had also been having Yoga-Rolf dreams over the weekend; one on Friday night, one on Saturday morning. In the first one, at the end of my practice he was telling me to do pranayama. He told me to do the first 3 and then he was explaining the first one which I cannot really remember now. In the second dream, he was helping me with Kapotasana and he had me put my knees very close to one another, almost together and then he was telling me to lift more from the upper back and also from lower back… I am waiting for Basakana B dream, maybe I can learn in my dream ☺

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Candolim, practice...

I moved to Candolim on Saturday. Now I have my own little room with its kitchen, all I need is in this little studio apartment! It is by the beach, 2 min to the shala and 5 min to the beach. I have a old French couple as neighbors until the 12th of this month. They say they have been coming to this place for many years but maybe next time it is time to go somewhere else since Goa got so populated with tourists, the roads and the beaches are full, the pollution has been increasing, not the same simple Goa… For me, it was such a difference Monday morning to go to the practice without making the cold drive. My body was warm, I did not even need socks whereas before every morning after the drive I would be rubbing my body to warm up and it would take an effort to get off my socks and my pullover…. Therefore, I am quite happy with my move. I can also be at the beach for the sunsets…

What else, oohhh Seyfi from London came! I was so happy when I saw him yesterday morning! We used to practice together at the Yoga Place in London; we became friends through the practice… Yes, he was one of those very nice people I used to practice with. Well, I am lucky to meet him again. Yoga Place has a really nice Mysore group. It had when I was there and I guess it is still does because I met Nigel, who also practices in YP, here, not when I was in London (he was not coming to practice when I was there) and he turned out to be a great person as well… So I keep missing YP, and of course it has a special meaning for me, it is the place where I got deep into Ashtanga, it is the place where I felt that yoga is the thing that I enjoy the most in my life, it is place where I decided to change my plans, leave everything behind and pick up and come to India...

So, a new week begin, this is my last month… I might add one more week to practice here or I might go to Pune for my last week in India… I was thinking no Pune this year but I guess I am missing the ashram, I missing the meditations, the gardens, the Buddha grove… I will see what I decide. You never know in India, plans change very quickly, unexpectedly. On the other hand, I am working on my practice and even harder than before, I added double chaturangas to my sun salutations, which Rolf has been suggesting since last April to get me stronger and now I do them finally. Still I am stuck where I am, at the same point Bakasana B, and I have to realize (knowing is not enough ☺) that it is okey; I am doing my work: double chaturangas and also working on jumping into handstands with Marci, so the rest will happen when it is time! I came so far in such a short time and I can be stuck, there is no goal, there is nothing to be achieved, only freedom, lets not make one more obsession… just work on it and then leave it, just have fun and then move into the daily life, just look at it as a blessing which is giving me the right perspective about the practice and myself and others.