Saturday, November 10, 2007

Born Twice

I have been quiet for while… because for some part, I was really in silence and no connection to external world… I went to Osho Miasto, the Osho commune in Tuscany for the Osho group “Primal, twice born deconditioning from childhood.” It was an eight-day long group. The first 4 days were extremely difficult for me; I was counting days. The funny part is the difficulty was mostly on physical level. My head began aching as if it was going to explode on the 3rd day and then I was aching all over my body… and I practice everyday, so I am not one of those people when I dance and be active a bit that I should be aching this much… but my legs, the sides of my legs were aching terribly and all I wanted to do was to hide under the sheets and sleep all day long. I guess part of the headache was detoxing from coffeee!!! But all these aches, on the fifth day- the climax day, disappeared magically. Such a detox from emotional, mental and physical rubbish! And the night of that day, when I woke up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, I realized that I was smiling! The Dynamic meditation combined with the group, just made me see clearer, and really physically I felt like I was seeing clearer and then, I was seeing myself more clearly, even with my practice; why I love this practice so many people are critical of and how I will stand by it proudly now on because it is the first one that woke me up and still keeps me awake!!!
After the 5th day, it was much easier and fun and also being literally born twice was the greatest experience! So, it was all worth it. I am happy that I have done this group and I thank my sister for insisting me to do this group. I was a bit frustrated with her when she pressured me so much, but now, I thank her.
Therefore, with all this, my travel plans changed a bit. I am going to Goa on the 20th of November, already purchased my ticket. I will study with Rolf and Marci there. Then, I applied for the residential program in Pune Osho meditation resort because I want to be with people and work with people and be in a place where there is meditation being done everyday so I will not fall back from meditating… And I just learned this morning that I got accepted! I will work and stay in the resort for 90 days! I am so happy!!! From deep inside, I felt that this would be very good for me when I was out of Miasto and so I hope it will be….
After all this, I would love to go to Mysore but I am not sure if the shala will be open. I see that they have a US tour coming up which is between March 15-28 2008. I wonder of they will open the shala after it. If anyone has an idea, please let me know.