Friday, December 15, 2006

All is going well

I am not writing much here becasue I don't have much time. It is good to have not much time to write when there is nothing "serious" that I am doing... without obligations I have not much time.
Painting is going well. This is not your regular painting class. WE all sorts of things, such as dancing, painting on each others paintings and sharing how it felt to have your painting to be ruined (or not)what blocks our creativity, more importantly what is creativity. sometimes it can be too much but it is good for me to explore these issues.
Funny ha! coming to India to practice yoga and ending up painting. But I guess this is the way universe is responding to my wish that I made last summer. I wished to have/create a job which I will enjoy and be creative with and which will allow me to have the life style that suits me (not banking). so now maybe I am building the foundations for that!

Sunday, December 10, 2006

to make things clear

I do not think that there is anything wrong with Mysore. I met lovely local people there, Anu and her husband Ganesh, Tina, Gita and Lokesh! I appreciated their service for us, the great food, tailoring and big hearts and all.. I also met with very nice yoga students with whom I will probably keep in touch. When it comes to me having difficulties. I am aware that those were because of the conditioning's I had with myself, because of my attitudes! I do not blame Mysore or anyone... I do not pity myself, I do not feel sorry for myself. I am who I am but I am trying to change the way I perceive life, how I take it. I am not running away from difficulties. I have been through lots of difficulties in fact "the Anonymous" writer. I did not leave Mysore because of difficulties. Actually in my last week I was beginning to feel pretty much at home and feeling bad that I had to leave. but I left because they close the shala on 18th and I wanted to be with my sister in Pune and I really need to began meditating! I believe that it is time for me to relax! I pushed myself too much in the past, enduring situations which did not work very well for me and now I want to enjoy life, I do not want to take it so seriously. ohh if I do not pass this test of Mysore I am doomed ha! no I have been there, I enjoyed some of it and did not enjoy some of it and I am perfectly allowed to explore different things. I could stay there but I choose to not and I made a good decision. I am not running away from anything... I have already been there for 5 weeks and I am grateful for having that opportunity. so the Anonymous commenter, please do not harass me. this blog is my space where I open my heart but not to be stabbed.

Friday, December 08, 2006

Pune!

I have been in Pune for almost 6 days. The Osho meditation resort is like a paradise and sorry to disappoint but no orgies or pushy men... Lots of meditation most of them including dancing! I find it very enjoyable, dancing three times a day, what more you can ask for. It is much more expensive than rest of India but not unreasonable when you consider what you get. Food is good, mixture of healthy steamed veggies, and other Indian and western food. I am happy here. I do not have to think umm what to do rest of the day. In fact I have no time to come home except to sleep. I usually do three meditations during the day. I also did a two day painting course which was amazing. I might do another one which will be 10 day long... Practice has not been neglected but I might consider a bit since it became so rigid. Maybe I need to give some space to that and do other things which will be also very beneficial for me. I practiced at 3:30 am during the two day course since I had to attend to dynamic meditation at 6 am. The course began at 9:45 in the morning until 4 pm. After dynamic meditation not enough time to practice and go to breakfast before it closes at 9am and then after the course I have to attend to Kundalini meditation which is at 4:15pm and then at 6:40 pm the evening meeting... so I woke up at 3:30 am to practice... but I do not thing I should do that if I do the 10 day course. I might just reduce my practice to 1 hour and do it before I have my breakfast...
need to flexible ha! yes, I need to learn that!
Do I miss Mysore? I miss the practice in the shala for sure but not much else!