Wednesday, October 19, 2011

So many moons


So, so many moons takes one to get wherever they need to arrive to…  I have lots of way ahead me, I know.  I have been through this and that, many countries, many cities, many trips, many living situations, many people, no people…  one after another, keep changing, keep diverging, leaving, coming…  What is the destination I do not know, I do not think so much about where I am going to arrive at, but the journey has been really interesting so far.  How did I end up in India at a friends wedding at a Hindu temple that they found on the side of the road to Arpora? I looked around felt so blessed for my new family.  I felt gratitude for my guts which took me away from where I was few years back…  I felt gratitude for my teachers, friends who shared willingly with their whole heart.  Time has been flowing since that time I looked around and felt so blessed; this happened again and again, looking around and feeling amazed.  Beginning to know myself a bit more each time, struggling with it and then letting go… Making mistakes and realizing them, feeling lousy and then again letting go, learning to let go.  Feeling supported by generous friends, teachers and sometimes feeling to be let down… all there as it is and seeing it, excepting it and sometimes becoming reactive which does not help but teaches a lot :p…  and patient ones who keep walking beside you…  which again thought me a lot, the generous hearts, forgiving hearts… lasting beautiful friendships where we all had to be honest at the end and realize the beauty and humanness in each other… 

What is ahead I do not know but I can guess that it will not be less interesting than what had been already.  I thank this lifetime even for this much.  Now is a beautiful space I share with another, what is next we do not know… but present is a beautiful present… 

Saturday, October 08, 2011

re-reminder...

I found something I have written last year in August...  It touched me deeply as i read it today, so I wanted to share it again...


Conditioned by the society most of us torture ourselves. There are no real differences among us, but we forget this as we grow up… and then the big part of the whole work becomes to work out that the differences are just mind games… even on our quest for truth we create separations. In our love for another we worry ourselves with differences… with love to ourselves we do not give totally because we feel separate and think that something must be wrong with ourselves… let go is necessary, a big let go of all this ideas of being higher or lower, failure or success, good or bad, beautiful or ugly… let the power of love work and see the miracle happening. Support each other to let the jewel in every being to shine and become visible. I thank my practice, my teachers, my friends, my beautiful sister and OSHO for reminding me that there is something beautiful in this world that makes life worth living!