Today I have been feeling a bit strange… Yes a bit strange… which is not unusual
but somehow today feeling strange has a bit more to it…
It is a full moon day today and also Republic day for
Turkey. I practiced my usual
practice in the morning since I will not be able to practice the coming week
because I will be participating in some other type of work/process… Then I taught the moon day class in the
morning, which was quite gentle, slow, forward bending… It was a soft morning
afterwards, very silent…
At noon, I went out to buy something and on the way I saw an
old man at a doorstep. He was
maybe sleeping… wearing dirty, old
clothes. My heart leaped out and I
felt this feeling I feel when I am the heart not my mind, not selfish
self… Then, as my mind got
involved, I felt so vain in my little yoga world, in my little self development
world, in my little world… It felt
all so empty… and then kept on
walking to my destination… In the
afternoon I was on facebook and read this article posted by a friend which was
written by a singer/songwriter from my childhood. The title of his article was “Republic day in the taciturn
people’s country”… to the
point, talking about what most of us ignore to see, how it is all
going backwards here… then I looked up the news and saw that police threw gas bombs
to people who were walking for the Republic days, who were declaring that this
country is secular and will stay secular…
I got teary, I felt so little in my little world. I know they say change yourself to make
change in the world but sometimes it feels damn selfish… yes, I feel strange
today.
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