Reflections almost

The time I spent here with Rolf and Marci has been very good for me. When I first came from Mysore, I was in a different state of mind, more scattered, easily distracted… During these last three months, I became more, much more concentrated and insightful. I went through despair to laughing about the challenge I have in my practice, which has been the most valuable lesson. At this point, I enjoy the fact that I cannot jump up to hand stand, jump to Bakasana B… yes it is fun, I cannot do it, so lets work on it and be joyous about it, play with it, not get frustrated with it and it is getting better with this attitude. So, working hard with a light attitude that I have learned… I am also learning to see the good things about my practice, not only the “what I cannot do” but also so many that I Can do… It is a challenge not to loose perspective in this practice but having a good teacher at these moments makes a difference… Their easiness about our challenges, reminding us the patience and lightness that is required to accomplish and move forward…

Now, I am in my room spending one of the last three nights that are left in Goa. There are tears in my eyes… I cannot help. Ohh me so foolish thinking when I saw those who left before me crying “such drama... I will stay away from tears when leaving…” and I am already in tears here in my little room. Well, why three days early you would ask… because Rolf is leaving tomorrow afternoon for Singapore to do a workshop, he will not be here during my last two days… so already it is time to say goodbye to him. Yes, he is a person just like Osho describes, very innocent, child like… very simple person, very straightforward, very open heart, very gentle heart…. He is the best teacher in the world, and when I say that I do not mean that he is just the best asana teacher, I mean that he is the best teacher from whom you see how to be in this world. Is there any more valuable lesson one can have?

I am thankful to the universe for having this opportunity to be here with my teacher. I hope that one day I can be such a being as well who has light and love for herself and therefore, can bring light and love to other people… And I want to thank both Rolf and Marci for teaching us, for sharing their knowledge with us and bringing such a nice group of people together. I find the practice in Goa with Rolf and Marci priceless… thanks a lot!