This morning my sister called me and told me that she was home and Tarçın looked like she might leave. I went to her and there the alpha cat was laying on the floorö all flat and not moving at all. My sister and I caressed her, gave her reiki… Then after a while my sister asked if it was time to take her to the vet to put her to sleep. We waited for a while to see if she would pick up more energy and maybe eat something. But all did happen was she moaned loudly and this was the sign that she was in too much pain since animals are much more tolerant to pain than humans and they usually not much vocal about their pain.
We took Tarçın to the Vet. He checked her and said the tumors were all over her body… and if my sister could tolerate, it is best to put her to sleep. So we did. My sister stayed with her, I sat for a bit since I tend to collapse in such situations and I wanted avoid such a scene since the Vet did not want anyone during the procedure and hardly let my sister stay.
Then we took Tarçın to my sister’s old house, where my parents live now. Buried her to the garden. My sister got a beautiful vivid pink cyclamen on the way to plant over where Tarçın was going to be buried. My father and all, the burial was managed under the rain.
It was so sad to loose Tarçın who had a little mark in the middle of her lips which made her look like she was giving a kiss all the time… She loved my sister very much, followed her everywhere; she was a very loyal one. As all these things happened today, I thought about what do I know about life and death… Loosing a dear one, a person or an animal… loosing a piece of your heart. Also need to know to let go so they can go in peace, but so difficult when they are so close to your being… on the other hand, it is the same way we will all go, and can this make things a bit more easy... well it was still very difficult, very sad, very heart breaking. We fair welled her with tears…
